DEAR DIARY… I LIKE HIM…HE LIKES HER…SHE LIKES HIM..HE LIKES…Dear Diary,
So I'm in love with Justin... he is fine, I mean he makes me feel so good inside. I never thought I would meet a guy like him. He picks me up from work, he's spontaneous, he's deep, and he makes me feel, well like a woman should be treated.
Last week he came all the way to Philly to help me bring my things back home from campus. Like who does that, I hate the fact that I'm moving back in with mommy, but at least I'll be home and closer to him. I had to sneak him in my room the other night while mommy was sleep...it's been a while since I seen him, so you know it was good... He is so freaky in bed, he has me doing things that I never imagined, I tried holding my screams inside by biting the pillow. I hope mommy didn't hear. He ate my pussy like it was a full course meal as if he hasn't ate for days, mmmmmm. I hope this is it, because I really am in love with him. What guy you know that will stay on the phone with you all night while finishing your papers, or come all the way to Philly to hang with me and my girls. Taking time to write me letters and making feel sexually secure through words. All my girls like him, and my homeboys thinks he's mad chill. He makes sure I get in safely, he checks up on me through out the day. Rachael thinks I need to slow down with him, because she said he looks like a playboy....but he is so good to me. Only thing I don't like is since I've been gone he's been chilling with his homegirl, he hasn't seen in years & he use to actually like her. Leila, she looks alright, I met her before she seems cool, but I had enough about hearing about what a great time they are always having together. I hope she knows he is MY MAN!! Every other day they were together... Oh I just came from chilling with Leila.... Leila just got a bonus at work, Leila and I have some sort of spiritual connection that you wont understand, but all I want you baby. So why can't we all three chill if it's nothing serious??? I don't get it... but I keep in mind all the good times we have it makes me feel some what secure in our relationship. He probably likes her because she is making money and i'm still in school, or perhaps because she has her own crib and I have to sneak him in..we had a whole argument about this "Leila" girl. If it's not that serious why since I've been home, he's been with her. He thinks I'm beginning to nag him, and says I'm pushing him away, so now I'm hiding my emotions in a damn diary!!! What is it about this damn Leila!!! I wish she would just die! Ugggggghhhhh!! I'm going to bed, Good Night Diary... Love, I 10am Saturday 1/22/11
Dear Diary,
I'm not going to front I really care about Jaida, she's a good girl. I know she is down for what ever and is really genuine. I think I jumped in a relationship with her tho. Her body is nice, she's cute, educated, has nice style and all that but I'm enjoying myself with Leila. When I think of the two women, I see Jaida as a girl, and Leila as a woman. Leila and I connect on a different level. I feel kind of fucked up because Jaida is sweet, I enjoy her company...she's a great listener... but so is Leila. I can chill with her all night reading, and she gets into it. I can be myself around her. I think she's a little weird but I could rock with shorty. She knows I'm with Jaida, always telling me my girl is going to be mad and that I should go home. But the crazy thing is I don't care... I really enjoy her company. I freely tell Jaida I'm chilling with Leila. I picked her up from work the other night and we caught a movie, went to brunch, then chilled with my homies. All my homies like her. I met her mom and chilled with her sisters the other night playing scrabble , Liquor was on deck, so everybody was in chill mode.. I like that. We finally had sex that night after a long day of fun... I went back with her to her crib... I knew she was ready because she was being extra flirtatious...we hit the room and she began by pulling my shirt up and kissing all on me... she going for my Johnson... I stopped her and picked her up, lying her own her back... spreading apart those red bone thighs.... I wanted to take my time with her... treat her body like it was a delicate piece of work... I slowly kissed her neck.. made my way to her diamond pierced nipples, as innocent as she looked I could tell she was a freak... I made slowly made my way from her belly button her body quenched for more....my tounge ice skated around the sweet walls of her pussy... her moans made my dick hard.... she held my head tightly close suffocating me in between her thighs.... After releasing all her juices... I slipped on a condom and entered her.... it was crazy! Her pussy fit my dick perfectly... it was nice, sweet and gushy just like I liked it... We had sex maybe 4 times, wore her pussy out.... I woke up to like 6 miss calls from Jaida... I didn't want to call her in front of Leila so I went in the hall.... Jaida wants to see me tonight she said she got us a room in a telly.. I hope she don't start nagging me about Leila.. I really care about Jaida.. she just gotta chill out... Aight Peace Out Diary, HE 9pm Wednesday 2/2/11
Dear Diary,
Damn, what am I doing.... He is such a passionate lover and so cool but he has a girl, and besides I'm still in love with Anthony. I wish I can mix them both and create this one man. Why does Anthony have to act like such a dick! Calling me every 5 days. Only time we ever spend time with one another is when we are having sex. He doesn't even respect me... always calling me out my name. I feel like he's playing mind games with me. The minute I meet someone, he's hawking me. Calling me all crazy telling me that he loves me, texting me long ass texts on how I don't give him no attention and how I'm always beefing about him not calling or spending time with him, when he is working and trying to get himself together. So it's my fault, hmph! He has time to tweet and update his FB status at work, why can't I get a message here and there. I'm always calling him, I'm always going to see him. He doesn't even ask about the things I'm doing.... Then there is Justin I enjoy myself with him, he's not really what I may have described as my type but he is so good to me. I like being with him, he's into alot of the things i'm into... he's a little hood, but a gentleman. He's a little free spirited, and spontaneous. He went with me to church, he's deep and poetic, we share a little history, my fam likes him... sex is a plus. ..but just my luck he has a girl... but he's always with me... she's pretty too.. I don't get men! I hit Cicely up yesterday and she said she likes Anthony for me, she doesn't think Justin is on my level.. But okay Anthony might have himself well situated but he don't respect me, and he's bipolar!!!! ughhhhhh I frickin' love him... why can't it be like when we first started talking, he use to be so sweet… We would stay in and he would let me cook for him…. Now he is always at a “business” dinner... I fell in love with him because he was so close to my son, we were like a big happy family, he took him to see Lion King and he calls him dad!!! It's like he’s not into me any more or something.... Why do I feel like I am chasing him, he use to be chasing me, checkin on me all the time now I feel like a stalker checking his statuses to see where he is and what town he's in.... oh wow how ironic that's him calling now, I hope I can get him to come over… until next time diary, SHE 4am Saturday 2/5/11
Dear Diary,
I'm not ready... I'm just having fun... I want to be with one woman who's going to love me, trust me and understand me... Relationships SMH!! , HIM
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